Blogs are wondrous things. You can pour your heart out in the words of your blog. You can spread your soul out for anyone or everyone to see. You can say things that might be better left unsaid if the wrong person reads what you have to say. You could hurt someones feelings even if a comment isn't directed to them, but they perceive it as directed at them. You can share you joys and sorrows, your highs and lows, your triumphs and failures, your fears and courage.
A few years ago I wrote my annual Christmas letter sharing the news that I was divorcing my husband of over 30 years. For some, it was the first hint that this was happening and I received many phone calls of support. For other people it was just an update on what they already knew what was happening. Only one former friend attacked me for what I wrote but after my initial reaction of sadness, I remembered that the therapist I had been seeing had told me it was a good idea to write that letter and I took comfort in the idea that I had done the right thing. Besides the former friend hadn't been much of a friend for a number of years and I had been distancing myself from her anyway.
I guess those who know me best know what an open person I am. My life is an open book. I've never been afraid to share with people what I've learned in my life including what I've learned about myself even if it isn't flattering. Some of my family has told me that what they like about me most is my honestly and openness that they know when I say something it will be blunt, to the point and maybe even brutally honest. In fact, some would say that in that aspect, I'm turning into my mother!
So at this point in my life, I find myself in an interesting position. I have some things going on that I can't talk about, especially in a blog that is open to the world to see. I have become involved with a wonderful man but I'm not at liberty to talk about him until he gets some things taken care of in his life. These were things that were started before I met him but still have an impact on our relationship. I'm learning that I have more patience then I ever would have given myself credit for. Another thing that I'm dealing with will involve my lawyer as more proceedings are started but no details can be shared here at this time.
Like I said, Blogs are wondrous things. You can share what you want or what you feel is safe. Hopefully it won't be long before I'll be sharing more.
1 comment:
Hang in there friend. I've an ear to bend if you need one. I wouldn't say what goes in one ear goes out the other, LOL, but it goes in and stays there. Hope things work out well with everything going on in your life. Lots of snow outside here now. I had to go up on my roof and shovel off part of it because the snow had covered the furnace pipe and smothered the pilot light.
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